I See You
Every Day!! Yes everyday “I see you” and one question I ask is “Enduku chudaley nenu ninnu?” every time I say this to her and then there is a big smile on my face and I feel happy. I could not share these experiences with my wife, as I fear our equation after all these years would change….
Strangely enough my Wife introduced me to her and I instantly found ………………………..
Few days later I get a photo of her and it still is in my phone. I changed to a new phone, had 5 years’ worth of photos, everything gets deleted or saved but she is the only one that stays steady till date.
There are strange ways you are tested in life and in my case one day, I and my wife along with my elder sister were out for shopping, and for the lack of parking place at GPO, I parked my vehicle at an opposite shopping mall. I along with my sister went into shopping mall as if we wanted to shop and my Wife went for the real work at GPO. Few minutes into the shopping, my sister was checking out dresses which we knew for sure we were not going to buy. I was sitting staring at the entrance and then a cute looking girl walks in and I look at her and instantly recognize the eyes, like a mad man I was telling my sister that I knew this girl and showed her the photo. My sister would have been in shock as to why this fellow is getting so excited looking at her!!
I had tears in my eyes, for I was seeing the very same girl, whom I was admiring all these years in the form of photo was walking in flesh and blood in front of me. I didn’t know how to approach her, what to talk, what to say? I went blank and slowly behind her an older lady walks in… still I could not reach out to her. For few minutes I was seeing her running around in the mall and then one lady approaches me saying that she knew me as Jyothi’s husband, my eyes did not want to see anything else and my mind was not processing those words. Then it struck me that she was my wife’s friend and her daughter was whom I am admiring all along.
Right from the time she got introduced to me and for the first time I saw her, she was a goddess to me, I just had to see her smiling face and it would make me feel happy and energized. What followed after the meeting is what still hurts me.
For two and half years of devotion I was blessed with a chance to meet, whom I feel is God (still do so) all I did was to ask her for a photo, staying very true to the current times. A miracle happened and I was wanting to take photos. No doubt My Goddess was not at all happy, she was irritated and not interested in me at all. Eventually I get a photo, as a proof of what I did wrong. May be I should have gone ahead and sung
“Manikya veenam muphalayantim,
madalasam manjula vaag vilasam,
Mahendra neela dhyuthi komalamgim,
Mathanga kanyam manasa smarami”
and she could have actually given me a true purpose of life then and there. I missed it!!!
Those dotted lines which I left there was for the feeling called “Divinity”. Even today those big eyes talk to me saying “Raghu……see how I am smiling” and she is giving me reassurance that it will be good, just keep smiling.
Just one of such days I was watching her and it’s her blessing that “I am writing” and my feelings got documented.
“Picchi palu rakalu” don’t worry it only says “madness has various forms”
Strangely enough my Wife introduced me to her and I instantly found ………………………..
Few days later I get a photo of her and it still is in my phone. I changed to a new phone, had 5 years’ worth of photos, everything gets deleted or saved but she is the only one that stays steady till date.
There are strange ways you are tested in life and in my case one day, I and my wife along with my elder sister were out for shopping, and for the lack of parking place at GPO, I parked my vehicle at an opposite shopping mall. I along with my sister went into shopping mall as if we wanted to shop and my Wife went for the real work at GPO. Few minutes into the shopping, my sister was checking out dresses which we knew for sure we were not going to buy. I was sitting staring at the entrance and then a cute looking girl walks in and I look at her and instantly recognize the eyes, like a mad man I was telling my sister that I knew this girl and showed her the photo. My sister would have been in shock as to why this fellow is getting so excited looking at her!!
I had tears in my eyes, for I was seeing the very same girl, whom I was admiring all these years in the form of photo was walking in flesh and blood in front of me. I didn’t know how to approach her, what to talk, what to say? I went blank and slowly behind her an older lady walks in… still I could not reach out to her. For few minutes I was seeing her running around in the mall and then one lady approaches me saying that she knew me as Jyothi’s husband, my eyes did not want to see anything else and my mind was not processing those words. Then it struck me that she was my wife’s friend and her daughter was whom I am admiring all along.
Right from the time she got introduced to me and for the first time I saw her, she was a goddess to me, I just had to see her smiling face and it would make me feel happy and energized. What followed after the meeting is what still hurts me.
For two and half years of devotion I was blessed with a chance to meet, whom I feel is God (still do so) all I did was to ask her for a photo, staying very true to the current times. A miracle happened and I was wanting to take photos. No doubt My Goddess was not at all happy, she was irritated and not interested in me at all. Eventually I get a photo, as a proof of what I did wrong. May be I should have gone ahead and sung
“Manikya veenam muphalayantim,
madalasam manjula vaag vilasam,
Mahendra neela dhyuthi komalamgim,
Mathanga kanyam manasa smarami”
and she could have actually given me a true purpose of life then and there. I missed it!!!
Those dotted lines which I left there was for the feeling called “Divinity”. Even today those big eyes talk to me saying “Raghu……see how I am smiling” and she is giving me reassurance that it will be good, just keep smiling.
Just one of such days I was watching her and it’s her blessing that “I am writing” and my feelings got documented.
“Picchi palu rakalu” don’t worry it only says “madness has various forms”
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